Adustment #3...glad it was today

I am sooo glad to have my 'fill' today. 7am I met up with Dr. Gritsus at Chilton Memorial Hospital. I was a little worried because I thought my port had flipped. Sometimes when I bend and then lift myself up, I hear/feel a popping sensation. I was sure my port flipped but it has not....whew! It must just be from losing so much weight so far and the port is shifting with my loss which is normal.
From that appointment, I went to the nutritionist who I hadn't seen since before my surgery(other than support group meetings). It went well. I like her scale. Because if her scale is correct, I'm now down 64 lbs...and I even had heavy clothing on!!! Woohoo! She assured me that no matter some of the negativity I have been hearing from certain people, that I am doing a GREAT job. My bmi went from 49 to 38 in 4 months! I'm no longer morbidly obese...now I'm just obese! LOL
On the downside, I have been struggling with some personal issues. I'm glad I had my 'fill' today because I have to be on liquids for atleast 24hrs. Today, everything that I was holding in, just came exploding out and mentally, I am drained. If not for my fill, I think today would have been filled with comfort foods and as much as I could eat of them without making myself sick. I know that would not benefit me in any way, nor would it make things better in the long run but damn I could soo go for snacks, chocolates and whatever else I could fit in my pouch right now. So, like I said, I'm glad I am not allowed to eat today! Eh...what will I do tomorrow? Hopefully a good night sleep and all the crying I did today will make things even a tiny bit better....

4 Month Bandiversary

Today is exactly 4 months since I've been banded. 9/22/08 has changed my life forever, for the better.

Tonight I spoke at my dr's seminar. While he was speaking, I sneaked myself into the back of the office where the scales are and I'm down 62 lbs! Woohoo! I don't think with all the diets I have ever tried over the years, that I have ever lost 62 lbs total, nevermind alone in 4months!

Right now I'm a little nervous because of slippage. Slippage is when your band slips out of place. This can happen from vomitting and at the moment, everyone in my house has the stomach virus. So, with some anti-nausea meds, I'm hoping to avoid atleast the vomitting part.

My self-confidence has been getting better with time but some days it still sucks. I recently had a family member say "You're not huge anymore...now, you're just fat". I didn't say anything but "oh thanks" with some sarcasm because I knew it wasn't worth the fight. I guess her yo-yo dieting is so great that she felt the need to shoot me down. I'm sure that I'm maybe 30 lbs more than she is, so I can't wait to get past the point and just smile, knowing that I'm not the 'fat' one between the two of us.

So, yea...62 lbs rocks! I'm feeling great. It's definitely the best feeling having people say "you look amazing". People actually notice me now. People say hi when they pass or hold doors for me, whereas before, I was just this huge blob that they would look the other way when I walked by. I LOVE IT! And I wouldn't change it for the world!