31 down and STILL going strong!

Down 31 lbs and still feeling great! There are times that I have sat back and said "what the heck did I do" when it comes to eating what I want, when I want. But on those days, I get on the scale and say "that's why I did it"! My kids asked me why I had a scale in the bathroom now, so I told them that I am losing weight. Both of their responses were "that means you can run with us again". It surely touched my heart. Not only am I doing this for myself, but for my children. I want to be there to watch them grow, and if I can keep myself as healthy as possible, then that's one of my goals in life!

Even though I'm down 31 in ONLY 4 weeks, I still have definite sadness in how heavy I still am. I know it will take time and for most people who have been overweight most of their life, even when they become 'thin', they will always feel fat. I'm SO determined to get to my goal! I have another 100lbs to lose and if I lose more, than great. I want to look good in clothing, feel good in it and most of all, not feel like a cow anymore!!! Go Me!!!

My Stomach FINALLY had it's Orgasm! LOL

Tonight I ate! For the first time in 3 VERYYY long weeks, I had something I could actually chew on! I originally wasn't supposed to eat until tomorrow, but I figured, what's the difference between tonight and tomorrow morning. So, when I made the kids dinner, I made sloppy joes. I was feeding the babies and they were not thrilled with it(prob cause the spices), so I decided it was time. I took half of a baby spoon full, chewed it until it was mush, and swallowed. I think I actually heard my stomach say Woohoooo! LOL I can't wait for breakfast tomorrow. It's so exciting! I'm down about 26 lbs according to my scale!

I decided instead of people having to scroll to the bottom to see the before pics and the now pics, that I would post them side by side now. Here ya go!

Feeling blah!

These pics were taken 10/5. I don't feel as if I look any different than last week. I haven't gotten on the scale because I think I was becoming a little obsessed. I'm extremely tired. Probably lack of protein, but that stuff is just flat out nasty. LOL

7 days til I can actually eat something! Woohoo! I go to the doctor in 2 weeks. Can I keep myself off the scale til then???

A Small Difference

These pics were taking on 9/29. I'm down 16lbs as of Monday night. People who haven't seen me in a few weeks have said they can see a difference. And that includes people that normally don't give compliments.

Today I'm not feeling so hot. I lifted one of the babies and it didn't bother me at the time, but I must have strained myself. Now, I'm just as sore as when I came home from the hospital. Very achey. I don't plan on doing that again.

I definitely have been wanting to eat. Not that I'm hungry...it's all psychological. I would love to have pizza, and potatoes and anything else I can shove into my mouth. But I have worked so hard at these 16lbs and I didn't go through surgery for nothing. So, I suck it up as I hit the drive-thru at Wendy's for the kids, or get them a slice of pizza. I want to cry as I smell the aroma of deliciousness. Then I remember how I'm down a whole pants size. I get over it...until next time LOL.

Here's a new pic. Same shirt as my "before" pic. What do you think?